Day 36-You Have To Let Yourself

Koely walked down the streets with her hands stuffed in her pockets. She had nowhere to be and she knew that. She looked up at the street lamp and sighed.

What is wrong with me?

She mused,her phone had no calls,or text messages. She wanted to be with people but had a life cripling phobia of them,strangers in general. She never approached anyone and became guarded when they approached her.

I am just going to get over it,there is nothing to be afraid of self!!

She screamed this in her head like she had many times before.

Walking up to the bus stop she sat on the bench,and waited. Then a guy looking about the same age as she was came and sat next to her. He didn't say anything,until the bus came. Koely and this boy stood up as if synchronized with one another. He looked her in the eyes.

"Where are you going?" He rasped out.

Speak! She kept thinking. He made the choice,now it is your turn. She reached down deep,to find the courage for three little words.

"Nowhere in particular."

He gave her a lopsided grin. "Me to."

They both got on the bus. She sat next to him on the back seat. And in a moment before she realized her self she stuck out her hand,and with a small simple smile.

"Koely."

He looked at her hand hesitantly before grabbing it.

"Jobe."

And on that night,on that bus,through just a few words,and just one handshake Koely knew that Jobe knew what it was like to be an introvert,but not want to be. And what it means to make the choice and decide.

You don't have to let yourself die inside.
Just decide to live.